So many things-so little time

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So many days in my life, I've spent it trying to get out of doing what I know is right...not that I'm about breaking the law, disrespecting life or anyone..but just in general. How many times do I KNOW I need to get some housework done or work work done..and yet I sit here on the computer playing a game...or get engrossed in a TV show, or just feel exhaustion overcome me and fall asleep.  I'm really great at ignoring the issues in my life-until they blow up and then I HAVE to pay attention. 

I hear so much in this world about things that are someone else's fault-and of course, I'm getting older and starting to feel my own mortality...and I just want to know..what will be my legacy? When I talk about my grandmother, I have all of this fond memories...when I talk about my mom..I have to talk about how hard she worked..and how to this day she loves us, and is like the matriarcal bear that would slash your face off if you messed with one of her cubs..and especially if you mess with one of her grandcubs..lol..and of course, there is my daddy and grandaddy..these men, even through all of the turbulations based on their complexion-were and are two of the most respected men in the valley...

So here I am..wondering, what will be MY legacy? What will Katie tell my grandchildren about me? What will Emily and Ashley remember fondly of me when they are not with us anymore? I WANT it to be that I loved them and protected them, that I was someone they could admire and want to be like-that I showed by example the values and ideals of hardwork, honesty and humbleness-and the need for drive to get what you want-but I just don't think I'm meeting the mail and I truly believe it is time for change. I have been blessed with a DNA of survival, mental acuity and toughness..so now it is time to use those very things to be the woman God intends me to be.  I'm not sure when I became so lazy and afraid..but whenever or however it happened..It is time for me to change-so that my legacy is one that continues the pattern of positivity that was started by my family so long ago.  I owe them all for what they have done, and what they have provided to me..

I always tell Katie that she needs to live up to the last name she was blessed with-now I need to practice what I preach and do the same.  

Today...Cleaning and Working..oh my...

Today has overall been a pretty good day.  I have so much laundry to do, but not as much as I had yesterday. Work is at the least hectic, but I'm slowly doing all of my projects and might actually find myself on time with some stuff..Mostly, I'm grateful that God gave me the gift of today. 

For supper tonight we are having teriaki chicken, rice and veggies..nothing too crazy...We have really gotten off our schedule, and boy is it showing. So, I'm going to keep it simple tonight-I have to work a little late-so this will be an easy peasy meal that the family enjoys.

As I sit here looking out at the view behind our home, I marvel at how I've gotten to this place in my life. Had you talked to me when I graduated from high school-this would've been almost a NIGHTMARE for me..but I've really never been happier..the only thing that will make me happier is having another child soon..lol..

I guess as you get older, realize how much you have to be grateful for-things could always be WORSE...and I'm trying hard to count the blessings rather than the shortcomings in my life. Because I'm learning those are really the things most important, and once you begin looking at the blessings-you find there are far fewer things to complain about.

So tonight when I lay my head and say my prayers..I will thank God for my family, my home, my life..and give him the glory...