Happy birthday card to Mike

Today I woke up..after almost a full nights sleep-something I rarely get anymore..from dreams of chasing butterflies in a field at home..I realized that today is my brother Mike's birthday..he would have been 52 this year..but because of what is now known as hepatitis C, he was taken from us when he was 27. My brother was 14 years older than me..so his presence wasn't as strong as that of my older sister..but he loved me..and I knew it..Although my cousins Craig and Randy tried to step in to take his place..I never knew the safety or love that I had with him. I never talk about him, mostly because I feel guilty doing it-I feel as if my loss was not as great as that my sister endured because they were so very close and never as much as my parents-who wants to bury their child? My daddy never talked about it and momma fell apart..their marriage almost fell apart..It wasn't easy..but it is true..Time will soften all wounds..I wish I could just sit down and talk with him..tell him things-have his response..just see him smile..the one thing I do remember vivdily..I have the same one..lol..My brother was my identical in our inperfection..to my sister's total perfection..and I say today..out loud..I miss you big brother..but I know God needed you..maybe to keep Aunt Lucy company..or to be there with Grandaddy..I love you Mike..I wish you could see your 2 crazy nieces..lol..most of all..I'm glad you are with the lambs..and I know you are in some way watching over me..Thank you for giving me sweet dreams..and kind thoughts on your birthday..Happy birthday big brother..from your baby sister..